Pain, Pain is all around me
My chest is burning and pressure is squeezing me
I am scared, am I dying
Sleep, sleep go back to sleep
Again I wake and there is pain
My chest, my arm there is pain
I call the doctor please help me I ask
The EKG reveals no heart trauma
It is just a panic attack
How can this not be real
I can feel it
It feels like I am dying
This only makes me feel worse
Why is this happening to me
There is no answer
Its just something that happens
Now you have to take medication
To make it stop
So here I am on the otehr side
I hope

What a mother is not

A mother is someone who walks beside you and gently guides you through adversity.

A mother is not someone who thinks everything should be their way and bully you into making a decision

A mother is someone who stands by your side when you make decisions even if she does not agree

A mother is not someone who tells you I told you so and gloats when you make a mistake

A mother is someone who loves you unconditionally no matter what

A mother is not someone who judges you and makes you fell guilty.

A mother is someone whom God has entrusted with the life of precious children

A mother is not someone who thinks they are the only right way

A mother is the true embodiment of love

A mother is not vindictive and mean

A mother is kind and forgiving to her children

A mother is not hurtful and vicious to her children.

God entrusted some woman to be mothers and others He did not.

Hello Lord

Hello Lord Its me again
Hello Lord I am here again
Hello Lord I am asking you again
Hello Lord I know you are there
HelloLord I know that you care
Hello Lord I know you love me
Hello Lord I know you sent your son
Hello Lord I know He died for me
Hello Lord I know I know I sometime doubt
Hello Lord I know I should have faith
Hello Lord I know I should not fear
Hello Lord I know that you care
Hello Lord I know you love me
Hello Lord I know you sent your son
Hello Lord I know He died for me
Hello Lord I will try not to doubt
Hello Lord I will try not to fear
Hello Lord I will try to have faith
Hello Lord I will try to look towards you
Hello Lord I will call to you each day
Hello Lord I will pray

Snow Day

She woke in the morning just in time to hear the radio say "Duquesne Schools 2 hour delay" She rolled over pulled back the curtain and looked out her bedroom window. A sea of white was all she could see. A 2 hour delay was crazy she thought why didn't they just cancel school today. " O well she thought at least I get to sleep some more. She pulled the covers over her head and went back to sleep. Before she knew it her sister was coming in the room yelling"Get out of bed its time for school!" "We should not have school today the young girl told her sister did you look out there yet?" "I did and it is time to get up now mom said we have to get up!" "OK!" the young girl muttered as she dragged herself out of bed and into the bathroom. This is crazy she thought nobody will be there. She went through the motions of the morning and got ready as her mom had told her to do all the while thinking this is crazy I am not going to go. Before you know it her friends were at the door it was time to walk to school. "This is crazy" she told her friends. "Who will even make it school." "I do not know" stated one of her friends. "Lets go the back way" another friend said. "OK" they all chimed in. They walked down the main street to the alley that went down hill to the school. This was no small feat since the snow was well up to their knees in places. When they hit the back alley and stepped into it they were all amazed. The snow was actually up to their waste. All the girls, which was four total, fell into the snow laughing and immediately making snow angels. One at a time they made snow balls and wailed them at each other. "There is no way we are going to school today"one of the girls said. "Lets play a while and go back and tell your mom there was no one there.""That sounds great" another one of the girls said "everyone know the story?" "Yep" they all chimed as one. SO the girls rolled and played in the snow for what seemed like forever to them. They were all covered with snow and cold now. They headed back home. Once at home the young girl told her mom the story they had all planed and went up to her room to spend a girls day at home. As they put the radio on to listen to music the announcer said "Duquesne schools closed today". All the girls let out a cheer and started to talk about what they could do in the snow once the had a chance to get warm again.

Why do I let myself get into this kind of funk
Jesus love me and does not want me to harbor this junk
Yet I worry and fear and fret over every little thing
Then I let that pull me away from my God and King
The farther away the worse I feel
I just need to remember when its time to kneel
Find comfort in the loving arms
of the God who keeps me from all harm
Look to Him when I feel bad
Put my head on His shoulder when I feel sad
Talk to Him every day
and follow him in every way

Lost

I am lost in a sea of clouds
I am lost and can not be found
I am sinking in the deep abyss
My Lord its You I really miss
Where have you gone
Why am I so lost
Where did you go
Will you let me know
I am lost in a sea of clouds
I am lost and can't be found
I am sinking in the deep abyss
My Lord its You I really miss
Please show the way back to you
Please help me get through
Why do I feel so all alone
If only I could just call you on the phone
I am lost in a sea of clouds
I am lost and can't be found
I am sinking in the deep abyss
My Lord its You I really miss
Help back to loving embrace
Help me to wallow in Your grace
Let me know that you are there
Let me know that you still care
I am lost in a sea of clouds
I am lost and can't be found
I am sinking in the deep abyss
My Lord its You I really miss

Sharing the Love

There was a was a young girl who dreamed about places she could go and things she could do. She was a pretty girl, she had long red hair which she liked to wear in pigtails and bright green eyes. Her skin was ivory white with the slightest bit of rose blushed on her cheeks. Her name was Emma Rose. She felt like she had an empty space right where her heart should be. She wondered why she felt this was. Her life was pretty good. She had a mom and a dad who loved her, an older brother and a younger sister. Her brother was a star on the football field everyone loved him and he was smart too. Soon he would be leaving to go to college just outside of town. Her sister was still a baby really she was only two years old and made Emma laugh when she giggled for no reason at all. Everyone is happy but me Emma thought often. When I get older I will be able to do things and go places and make things and that will help me fill this empty spot she thought.
Emma saw a sign at her school it said a missionary was coming to her school all the way from China where she lived with the Chinese people and taught them about God. Wow Emma thought that would be really interesting. She wanted to learn all she could about China so she could go some day too.
The day of the missionary talk she was so excited she could not stop smiling. Just the thought of going to a foreign land made Emma smile. When she got to the auditorum she made sure she was sitting right in the front row, so she did not miss a thing. The speaker was introduced and Emma found herself smiling again she was so excited she felt a tickle in her stomach as she waited. The speaker was a young lady in her 20s. She said her name was Isabella. Emma thought she was the prettiest lady she had ever seen. She was about as tall as Emma's mom; she had long dark brown hair so dark it was almost black. Her eyes were brown like chocolate, her skin was darker than Emma's it almost looked like tan to her. She waited intently as Isabella began to talk. Isabella showed pictures of the places where she had been in China and talked about showing the people the love of God. Isabella talked about the son of God and how he died for sins of all. Emma had never heard about this before. Isabella said everyone had sinned. But what is sin Emma thought to her self and how did Isabella know Emma had done this if Emma did not know herself. Isabella explained that sin was something you do when you know its wrong like stealing from the store, or fighting with your brothers and sisters, talking back to your parents. Isabella said everyone deserved to die for the sins they had commited but God loved us so much he sent his son Jesus to save us. As Emma listened to Isabella talk she felt something stirring deep inside her heart. Isabella said all you had to do was tell Jesus that you were sorry for your sins and ask him to forgive you and he would. Isabella said after letting Jesus forgive your sins you couls ask Jesus to come live in your heart; and he would! Then Isabella told everyone to close their eyes and pray a prayer with her if you wanted Jesus in your heart. The stirring in Emma's heart grew stronger so she did as Isabella said. Emma prayed and asked Jesus to forgive her sins and come into her heart. Emma knew she would never forget that day. She felt like the empty spot had been filled!
That was 20 years ago and Emma was now a young woman herself. She smiled as she remembered that day at school and the missionary who came to her school. She knew that was a day that had changed her life forever; her empty spot was filled. She thought about her life since that day and the places she had gone to tell people about God's son Jesus. But today was extra special because today Emma was walking down the halls of the very same school she went to when she was a child. Emma was the speaker today, and she would tell the children about God's great love and how she had been blessed to share his love with people in China just like Isabella did 20 years ago.